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Don't you just hate when you think you really like some of the friends you've made then realize they're all
SHIT.


I know who my real friends are.
But I can't avoid making these "friends".

Lame people who I thought were wonderful.
Or maybe they were wonderful, but something made them change.

One of my friends used to be AWESOME. Didn't talk about girls ALL THE FUCKING TIME and their asses and how cute they are.
Used to have real conversations with him that were not about GIRLS AND HOW HOT THEY ARE.

Another friend wants to be SO unique that if she sees any of her other friends doing what she is (style-wise) she'll be like "WOW THEY'RE COPYING ME...UGH"
GOODNESS! We're all people in this world, we're all similar DEAL WITH IT and stop trying to be so different...because really, you're actually like most of the people in this world: a judgmental attention whore.

I am SICK of those type of people.

I know of several people who I still think are awesome. I talk to them frequently. Unfortunately, I talk to the other less awesome people with the same frequency.
I'm trying my best to make them go the fuck away.

This:


I love his face so much. I've never tried to draw anyone's face in detail besides mine and that was for art class.

So....new obsession = Samuel Barnett.

I watched The History Boys for a second time. I understood it way more this time. Even cried several times. Samuel's character, Posner was my favorite. His voice is lovely too. He sings quite a bit in the movie. I downloaded the soundtrack. Bewitched has become my new favorites song. I haven't stopped listening to it, and since I just redid my whole iTunes library...it's already the most played song.
It's a pretty depressing song, but it's beautiful at the same time. I think I did a complete change in my musical taste for now because of the songs Barnett sings in the movie. I'm getting more into ...not quite sure of the genre, but the kind of stuff Ella Fitzgerald sings.

So, natrually once my obsession beings with an actor (sometimes actress) I immediately go to imdb and see what else they've been on. I'm currently watching a BBC show called Desperate Romantics which has Barnett as one of the main characters. I like his character a lot.
(Also, lots of boobs in this show! XD)

SO YUH.

Edit:
Attempt one:


Bad quality cause I'm using webcam (left my camera at school.)
I think I kinda failed. Looks more like Ezra from Vampire Weekend. XD

So...after worrying so much about the dorms TV schedule being on NY time,  (I missed the Emmy's on Sunday for some reason..NPH!), I can now rest easy knowing that awesome Monday's on CBS start on time.

How I Met Your Mother: Eh, not the best season opener, but oh man was the end cute.  <3333
--skipped everything in-between--
Big Bang Theory:  Hahaha, I love Sheldon.  The end of the show was very OHMYGOODNESS.  Can't wait till the next ep!

Then after all that, I watched Harold and Kumar go to White Castle fully for the first time ever.
NPH!
Haha, I'd seen the very end of the movie, but I did not know of NPH then.
Loved the Doogie Howser references. ^__^

Problem is the cost of the healthy shit.
Give us processed food for cheap, and that's what majority of people can afford.
Organic food will never be cheap unless you have a vegetable garden in your own backyard.
I say just eat what you want.  If you die cause of your eating habits, well...you did it to yourself. 
It's your life.

i got sucked into this zone
it's my zone now
i'll share it with you
but don't even try to get me out of it

I want to go to Finland now.
I don't want to wait till 2012.

I want an adventure.

Can't wait till August 10th.
That's when some fun can begin.


SOMETHING FOR MY TREE:

We haven't talked like we used to talk.

I feel like I just can't get along with this whole hippo deal.

I dunno what it is.

It's just not working.  WHAT IS THIS FEELING?

*starts singing in a disney way*

WHAT IS THE FEEEeeEEEEEeeELing?

I caNNot tellllll.

what caused this FEELING?

*states* I think it was n-p-h!

what is this fEeeeeEling?

 

oh duck it...we're through!

...balls.



 

i am so scared about the future in the long run

HELLO WORLD....hahaha..(should've added System.out.println)

anyways


Summer schedule:



Econ 002 = Microeconomics...hope it's not SUPER MICRO.
Biol 011 = Human Biology...kinda excited, I like physiology.
But frigggggg, I'm going to HATE Wednesdays.... 3-10pm.


On to the fall schedule, which is not complete but as far as I can go:


Phys 50 = lowest physics I can take...I hope it's not harder then physics honors from high school...and hope there is barely any calculus involved
Math 31 = Calculus 2
CS 49C = Programming in C...YAY  (no really, cause it's better then java...or it was when I took it at community college ..haha)
Kin 27B = Intermediate (ooOoOo) table tennis. :)  I got first spot on waiting list...suxxx, but professor is awesome, so I'll be like "YO GIVE ME  A SPOT? kthnx!"

I also want to add intro to philosophy, but I can't till August 10th...friggin capped us at 14 credits till freshmen sign up.  Highest amount of credits we can take are 18.
Took 17 last semester...pooped me out, so going for one less class.  It will be like first sem, except with three major courses, a GE and Table Tennis.

Haha...I <3 Table Tennis.

I want to get hired and I want summer school to start.
Seems like school is the only thing that will keep me busy, since all I do everyday now is sit in my room.
I wish everyone was on semester system. URGH.

My two favorite words:   Dance, magic.
I love to dance, and I wish magic was real, it would make dancing, and everything else better.  It would also have its downsides if some douche nozzle Voldemort decides to use it to rule people and what not.  But that's okay, cause there's always a Harry, Ron and Hermione. 

My two favorite songs:   Where is my mind? by Pixies, Ottoman by Vampire Weekend.
Lately I've been feeling not so happy, and the other night after sorta exploding inside, I sat down and put on Where is my mind? on single repeat for a while and I was amazed at how good it made me feel and how much it calmed me down.  That's the first time music has ever done that for me.  And then I put on Ottoman, cause I didn't want to get sick of my favorite Pixies song.

A word I like and dislike: Banana
I like it cause it has my nickname in it (nan...haha, a banana is also not a number :P), and its one of the easiest fruits to eat....sometimes.  (I do have trouble sometimes when try to get the first peel down.)
I hate it cause in Brawl, this stupid monkey (not DK) throws bananas and it makes Marth trip over them all the time and whenever it happens I say "Banana!" with such detest!

What I'm doing right now:  Drawing.  I've been drawing a lot.  I've been stuck in the house with not much to do.  (Only chance to go out was to drop off job applications and watch Up...side note: I realllllly want a Dug. ^_____^) 

Made this for my moms birthday present.


Gir is my new <3.


Gurren Lagann is awesome!

And right now I'm in the process of drawing this:

JTHM is awesome.  Jhonen Vasquez is awesome.
Nny is <3


THE END.

chodely told everyone she was in a porno

 

This one is obvious, but it's SO AWESOME!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rz5IlodOKE8

Chocolate seems to be the only thing that is Valentine-ized.  What about for all the people that don't like chocolate?  I'm surprised there is no special pink and red Valentine's day Skittles or heart-shaped Starbursts
That would be really cool actually.  

"Hey lover, I can open this heart-shaped candy wrapper with my toungue. ;)" 
"Oh baby!"
*sex*

Yes to the latter.  I was walking back from class one day and this fellow sitting on a bench with another person said "Hello" to me, so I waved back and said "Hi."  Then he said, "Hey, come over here," and patted the space on the bench on the other side of him.  I sorta mumbled "...gotta go...urr" but I walked over.  And then he asked me a question...like what my name was?  I don't quite remember.  Then he stood up and gave me a hug.  And I thought that was nice, though some people were like, "Whoa, that's creepy."  


I don't think I'd have the guts to actually hold up a 'free hugs' sign, but I think I would go hug someone with the sign.  I think....
 
When I visited India over break, my cousin told me that a few people held up signs a few weeks earlier.  I thought that was cool.  The magic of priceless hugs is spreading! Yay! :)

Yay...busy busy.
 

AAS - Asian American Studies (part 2)
CS - Computer Science intro
KIN 20 is badminton, KIN 27 is table tennis
ENGL - English composition
Math 30 - calculus
COMM 20 - speech class or sumthin

Right well, dunno how many of you have read this book...but for those of you who have will probably understand me more. 

So I'm reading Looking for Alaska.  I haven't been reading anything else (I should be reading my textbooks...ohman) except Bleach, but I finished the two volumes I had very quickly.  The book (not Bleach) made me think about A Separate Peace, maybe just because it's taking place at a boarding school.  It also reminds me of another book, but I can't quite remember which.  Anyways, John Green is an amazing writer.   I get this weird feeling when reading it, cause I've mildly watched the VlogBrothers on YouTube, so in a way I know more background and the persoality about the author who wrote this.  (He's actually coming to a bookstore 20 minutes away from where I live this Wednesday, but ...augh the "but".  I'll just leave it at that.)  


Spoiler alert....sort of.  Don't read if you don't want to know anything about the book. 
So my feelings about the story.  It builds up a lot.  (Like any book...duh.  I won't use that sentence in an essay, I promise you.)  Especially with the stuff about famous last words.  And then when you get to the very end of "the last day" you know what's going to happen.  And then you start reading the "after" part.  Usually I would cry, because I cry when anything sad happens in a book.  Maybe it as because I was all cried out.  But really, I felt like throwing up (maybe that's lack of sleep, but the sensation was stronger.)  And then I finally put the book down.  I think I'll give it a few hours before I pick it up again (hopefully get some school reading done in the mean time).  There's so much more to read though.  I just keep thinking, "What else can John Green write about?" 

So usually, I can't just sit around and listen to music.  I have to be doing something else.  Or if I want to take a nap, I'll usually listen to my iPod (and hopefully not strangle myself with my earphone wires ...constant worry of mine.)  I've recently been obsessing over Weezer ever since my brother bought my tickets to their show.  And now I'm even reading everything on Weezerpedia. 

Well, anyways, the point of this is that I have three midterms coming up but all I want to do is sit and listen to Rivers Cuomo's voice.  I got The Home Recordings of Rivers Cuomo and I started playing it while studying...but five songs later I found myself just sitting there listening.

Some of the songs are funny.  There's a song about chess, and the lyrics sounds like something Neil would write.

I do love Rivers voice, yes, yes I do. 
I'd post some pics from the concert, but...I really should go study.

no really, it's exactly what you think

This is a picture of my film professor

http://www.sjsu.edu/upload/faculty/images/faculty_2990.JPG

WHO DOES HE LOOK LIKE?  GUESS.

Also, new Weezer video:  http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/--201561035 :D

Woooo.  I just wish I could find the lyrics.  Tried to write it myself, but there are a lot of gap.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UJBFiFcDW7U

There's a download at the side bar at this live performance of the song.

“Ottoman”
Vampire Weekend

Ottoman couch
How handsome, you furniture
Lovely in ____
But dressed for funeral

Begging you to sit for a ___ on the wall
To hang in the dark of some parliament street hall(?)

Elegant clothes you want to be seen with
Only you tweed
Sweat like a teenager

Begging you to sit for a margin(?) on the wall
To hang in the dark of some parliament street hall(?)

Today’s for you
They laid it out for you
For you
We’ll be ___
___
This feels so unnatural
Peter Gabriel too

Begging you to wait for a minute by the door
_____

Today’s for you
They laid it out for you
For you
We’ll be ________
__for you
But this feels so unnatural
Peter Gabriel too



^ That's what I wrote down.   Interesting how they used "But this feels so unnatural, Peter Gabriel too" cause they use it in their other song, Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa.

Ohman would it be amazing to see this band live.

    Well.  I do. And I think that's why I've messed up my own mind, cause I over think everything and I get paranoid about everything.  But I don't know how I can stop doing that, cause I hate doing it.  I went through this whole thing of trying to say "Whatever" to everything that ended up bothering me, but that lasted for a week and then I was back to over thinking everything all over again.
    I always think about the type of person I am and the type of person I want to be looked at from the outside.  Then I always think, "Just be yourself." But today I realized I don't even know who I am myself.  Which sucks, cause until I stop caring about all the small stuff that happens and thinking about everything that I could have done differently to make it better, I can't "be myself."  And I'm too confused about stuff right now, like the type of person that I want to be, to be able to get this all straightened out. 
    It's frustrating.  When my friends say, "Oh you're such a wonderful person because of this and this ...."  I take it as a bad sign.  Like a "Oh crap, I'm showing off the good qualities...goddamnit why do I keep doing this?"  And I should be taking the compliments in and feel happy about them, but I feel like I shouldn't deserve to feel good about myself.
    It's like I know I don't want to take it badly, but I do anyways.

URGH.  My mind is fucked up.